Where the HELL is TERRYSUAVE?

Where the hell is Terry? Where’s the videos mane? Where’s the content at? 

That’s a good question. Let me explain.

Pre-Pandemic I was lowkey in a slump. I was making content here and there and I just felt like it wasn’t really hittin like that. Plus, I don’t really like how I look on camera usually. I thought if I just kept going though, eventually it would become easier. It did not.

The more I kept doing it, the more it felt forced and not really enjoyable. I was shooting fast so I could just get things over with. Then when I would edit the videos I wasn’t really happy with how I looked in them, I felt like I wasn’t going to get views, etc. The the pandemic happened and I really didn’t want to shoot anything. It would be times where I felt like I wanted to make a video about something, and then I’ll change my mind because I don’t want to make the same content as the main film photographers on YouTube was. Also me being insecure about being on camera doesn’t help either.

Long story short, I haven’t been feeling like making anything as of late. I will shoot when it’s for a job, but that’s about it. To make content the way that I want to involves other people and working around their schedules and I haven’t really wanted to bother people a lot making a iso episode, especially with me in it. Fighting personal battles on a daily basis drains me to the point where I really don’t want to make anything as well. 

Even though I don’t feel like doing it, I’m still going to try to make content regardless. Whether it’s in blog post or in videos that have someone else in it instead of me, I’m still going to do it. I have a lot of information to share to people that’s just like me when I started out shooting film and I can’t keep all this info from them. If I saw someone like me making film photography video on YouTube when I first started I feel like this journey would’ve been a lot easier. So that’s why I’m going to keep doing it. Hopefully it gets easier from here. 

I might have some more content coming soon but if not, Happy Holidays and I hope to see you in the New Year.